continues .....In the evening I reached the college before 6.30 but was hiding near a tree and was waiting. She called me up at 6.30 but I didn't answer. About 15 mins later she came out and was waiting near the entrance. It was around 7.15, I went there and she saw me as if she's gonna smolder me to flames. "I'm very sorry, I had a flat tyre and I had to get it fixed and that was the reason for the delay" saying this I handed over the record book and said, "Thanks a bunch and I'm extremely sorry for the delay in returning the record as well as for making you wait for such a

long time" She grabbed the record from me and started walking without saying anything. I started my bike and went near her and said, "Come I'll drop you

home, it's dark" She walked hastily towards an auto rickshaw coming towards us. She hired the auto rickshaw and got into it. I followed her; after sometime the auto rickshaw stopped she got down and asked, "Why are you following me?" I said, "It is my fault and I'm responsible for your safety, its dark and the area is lonely; no street lights too. How can I trust a stranger and send you in an auto rickshaw? Come with me or if you prefer the auto rickshaw, you can go but I'll follow you till you reach your place to ensure you reach safely" and smiled. She went to the auto rickshaw, paid him and came and sat on my bike. I started the bike and she kept giving me instructions as "left, right, and straight" she didn't speak anything except this. After 30 mins she said, "Stop" near a ladies hostel. I asked, "Oh you stay in a hostel, which is your native, where are your parents? As soon as I stopped she got down and walked off without saying anything. I went home and told my Mom all that happened today. My Mom said, "Poor girl, she must be feeling home sick and that's why is always sad. Food is not good in some hostels and that could also add up to her sadness" I said, "Yeah Mom, maybe that's the reason she is always sad. Mom, please prepare my favorite Poori tomorrow for breakfast and pack it for her too mom. She said, "Okay, I'll do it" The next day I

went to her and said, "Hi" and placed the lunch box in her desk and said, "My mom prepared Poori today; it's my favorite so I got it for you too. Have it during the break" I didn't wait for her response and went to my desk. In the evening I found the box in the place where I placed it, she didn't take it too. I felt bad, I troubled my Mom and if I take it back home she'll feel bad too. I didn't want to waste it so I took it home and put it in the microwave and had it and told my mom what happened. She said, "It is okay, never mind, maybe she didn't like poori that's why she didn't eat" I said, "I think she didn't even open the box mom". She said, "It's okay, leave it" I didn't stop bringing food for her from my home. Every day I used to give her a box. She didn't touch it at all. One day, I checked her date of birth with the class rep and found that she was a year and three months younger to me (I missed a

year when I was studying 4th standard due to chicken pox) and her birthday is a week ahead. There was a good practice in our class and it is we used to collect 25 bucks from everyone in the class every month and celebrate our classmate's

birthday. It was the activity that excited everyone. On her birthday, before she could come I placed a gift on her desk. When she saw the gift she was surprised and was wondering if it was for her. I went to her desk and said, "Happy birthday. This is my birthday gift for you" She didn't even open it but threw it on my desk and saying, I don't like gifts and I don't have to take anything from you. Being insulted in front of the class I felt as hamed and walked to my desk. I was very disappointed by her behavior; yet I couldn't hate her because I had a soft corner

for her. I didn't stop bringing food for her even after this incident and as usual she did not take it. I liked her but not her behavior. Though initially it was the challenge that made me talk to her but now there was an unusual feeling that made me cling on to her and fight for her friendship. About a fortnight passed and to my surprise, one day the box I gave her was empty. I was very happy and asked her if she liked the food. She said, "Yes, it was nice. Thanks" The next day during lunch break I asked her, "Shall I join you for lunch?" She said, "Okay" and we occupied a table. I grabbed her box and pushed my box to her and said, "Lets exchange our lunch today" before she could refuse I opened the box and started eating. You know it was sick and I felt like saying yuck; but since she'll feel bad I said, "Hmmm tastes good henceforth we'll exchange our lunch, okay" She didn't say anything but started to eat. I asked, "How is it? She said, "Very tasty" I continued, "my mom prepares tasty food; I love all the dishes she prepares and I asked, "How about

you?" Her face turned pale and few tear droplets fell from her eyes on the table. She was struggling to pretend as if she was not crying and without finishing her lunch she left the place. I thought she was missing her parents and I felt bad that I reminded her of them. The boy who placed the bet came and asked, "How did you

befriend her? Oh, I failed the bet" I said, "Never mind about the bet, I just took it because the challenge was interesting and not for money" I went to her desk, returned her lunch box and said, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to hurt you" She said, "It is okay" and started to write some record. I left the place in dismay. At home during our dinner I told my mom about her. My dad said, "Arjun, bring her home

one day, poor little girl she must be missing her parents" I said, "But she doesn't speak with anyone dad, anyway I'll invite her" My dad said, "Invite her for your birthday" I said, "Hmm, that's a good idea dad" Turning towards my mom I said, "Mom, her hostel food is sick; please pack an extra box of lunch for her every day. At least she'll have one good meal a day" She said, "Okay. Check what she likes, I'll include in the menu and prepare it frequently" My parents were my friends and I used to discuss everything with them; there was nothing that I hid from them. My sister Adithi was also my best friend. She's studying in the 8th standard and I

used to help her out in her studies, record works, sports, assignments etc. As days passed on Nethra and I become friends and we used to have lunch together everyday. I was the only person she would talk to among all the other students in the class. She never spoke anything else other than studies. Our 1st semester got over and a month's winter vacation was announced. Everybody had planned something or the other for the vacation. I asked her, "Nethra when are you leaving to your native?" She said, "I'm gonna stay in the hostel" Perplexed I asked, "It is a month's vacation and you were feeling home sick you can spend some time with your parents" Her face turned gloomy and said, "No, I'm not going" and she left the place. I told my Mom about her vacation plans with utter displeasure. She was shocked but continued to say ,"Maybe her parents are busy with their work or they must be abroad. Anyway your birthday falls during the vacation; invite her home"

I said, "Okay".A week later I called her and said, "Tomorrow is my birthday and we have a small party at our home and I'm inviting you for that. Be ready by 4.00 pm, I'll come to pick you. Okay, take care, bye" and hung the phone even before she could refuse or accept. The next day before I started I called her and informed that I started. She said, "I'm not coming don't waste your time" I said, "I started, no excuse. Please be ready"She will join with him or not?....

Cute love story arrives!!!! but this aint my creation ..i found it very catchy do read it if you have patience .....

… surely it will hit you!!!… enjoy it!!!!… We are planning to go for a movie on Saturday. How many of you would be interested?" one Thursday end of the day, our class rep asked this. All of us raised our hands except Nethra. He said, "Okay, interested people,please bring 120 bucks tomorrow so we can book the tickets as fast as we can" All of us tapped our desks with joy. It had been two months since we joined college and we knew each other in the class by their names and our friendship' gang started to build up. There was lot of fun during class and off class hours. All of us started to go out for movies, restaurants,birthday parties etc, except her. Nethra used to be alone and aloof always. She used to sit in the last bench and never spoke with anyone. All the other students were scared to talk to her as she was grumpy and a cranky person. She had displayed her anger many a times with other students. She was good looking but I think she would look beautiful if she smiled because no one had ever seen her smiling. Her pet name was "Miss. Long Face". None of us in the class liked her but she used to do her assignments and record works promptly and had a good name among the lecturers. She was good at studies too and class topper while I used to rank from 4 to 7. One day as usual all the boys in the class were discussing about the girls in the college; when the topic went on her. One boy said, "I pity her husband he is gonna have tough time with this girl". Another boy said, "The person who makes her smile will be an extraordinarily talented person because she is such a bad tempered girl" One jumped up and said, "Is there anybody who is ready for a challenge?" Everyone asked "what will be the challenge and the bet?" He said, "1000 bugs" "What's the challenge?"  everyone asked. He said, "The challenge is to befriend to Miss. Long face". Since the bet and challenge was attractive I was interested in trying it;

 so I took up the challenge. I thought of a plan to befriend her and as per my plan I did not attend the entire day's class the next Monday. On Tuesday when I went to class I asked my friends, "What were the assignments or records that were given yesterday?" They said, "The Chemistry record need to be completed till date and the deadline to submit for corrections is on Friday" I said, "Oh, just three days for Friday. Has anybody completed the record?"  They said, "No, not yet. We have lot of experiments pending to be completed" I went to her and said, "Hi Nethra" She was writing something and when she heard me, she raised her head and looked at me sternly and asked, "What?" I asked, "Have you completed the chemistry record?" Sternly she said, "Yes" I said, "I did not attend the last chemistry class and I heard that we need to submit the record by this Friday. Nobody else in the class has completed it so it would be great if you could lend me your record. I'll return it tomorrow" With lots of hesitation she gave me the record and in a warning tone she said, "Handle it carefully and return it tomorrow without fail" I took the record notebook from her and intentionally left it at home on the day I promised to return back in order to develop friendship. I was so impressed by the way she has maintained it. Her handwriting was beautiful and the highlighting & markings, presentation of the record was mind blowing. I liked her record and I liked her too, but she was a mystery. I was curious to find out the secret behind her callous nature. On Wednesday she asked me, "Where is my record?" "Your presentation skill is very impressive" I said. She asked, "Where is my record?" "I complimented about your record" I said She said, "I don't need your compliment, I need my record? "I didn't complete it yet, shall I give it tomorrow?" I asked "I need it by tomorrow without fail" furiously she said and turned to leave my desk. "Can you remind me in the morning so I won't forget? Please and this is my number" saying this I wrote my number on a piece of paper and gave it to her as she was about to leave. She plucked the paper and walked off rapidly without saying anything. I knew this was the right way to get her number. On Thursday morning she called me early in the morning and said, "Nethra here, called you to remind about the record book" saying this she disconnected the call. As soon as I came to the class she asked, "My record book" I searched my bag and hit my head and said, "Oh I am sorry, it's not there in my bag, I forgot to bring it. Give me your address after the class I will bring it to your home" She said, "I know you'll do like this. Irresponsible fellow, that's why I hesitated to give it, Okay I will wait near the college entrance in the evening bring it to the college" I said, "It will be late and you have to wait for a long time. My home is far away and it is my fault so I will bring it to your home" Stubbornly she said the same thing again, "I will wait near the college entrance till you get it. Around what time will be here?" I said, "6. 30 pm" She said, "I'll wait in the library till you reach the college. Once you reach the college give me a call and then I'll come out" I said, "Okay, sounds good" Will he came back with the record notebook??....continues 

" STANCE OF LIFE "

Its a fine morning , i started to think of something to add in here about phrases struck in mind which everyone could feel at some point of time but couldn't express it properly to others or probably doesn't have time to think of it . well i am talking about nothing but paralyzing memories that haunt us and stop us moving forward . i have seen many of my kind who couldn't properly knows to express themselves but that doesn't mean that we are emotionless creature rather we could address ourselves as person with less act .
      Whenever i sit down and start thinking about my past , the time just vanishes away and i end up wasting another opportunity to move forward in the race of life wherein my peers has already crossed miles . well i am happy that i am not the only one but there are many of them who couldn't figured about what actually they want to proceed in their career which could earn them a memorable past to think of when they at the verge of their journey .
     Never known the path that i was destined to...
never cared the path to be taken to follow ones dreams..
     never thought the path would be so carefree...
never decided to flee away from destined lifes obstacles...
     never had a choice to recreate my life as per my wish ...
here i struggle like a baby to express my feel with a loud cry...
      I always try to imitate others and envy each of them about their passion towards what ever they do . i personally dont have any interest my mind just keeps wavering like a leaf in air . henceforth i slowly started talking up others interests that doesn't lasts for long time meanwhile i see some other creative idea and try to follow it so its just like wandering around stations without having an actual destination . funny but makes sense to me , because i like to be so . its very easy to impersonate others ideas and i like it because i get to see the world through their eyes which made me happy . i always used to think how it would feel to actually stay for a while in someones world solely made of their creativity .
    Wander to the core ,till it satisfies your inner urges ...
 justify your thoughts as if it doesn't belongs to you...
     vanish with your memories as they tend to fade with time ...
forever and forever day dream about your life to blossom the way  you want to continue ....
      I came across a perfect story recently which was about the random life around few friends and their passion . i just loved the story line which really had a good plot and a solution for ever lasting quest carried out by a adolescent . http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Honey_and_Clover
 i have added the link feel free to read it . story narrated by

Chica Umino , her way of thinking was very peculiar that was aesthetically produced into anime episodes which is a little bit drag but you must have patience to watch it . 

now a days hardly one could come across a good story . so watch it ...

HI FRIENDS ,WELL TO BE A BLOGGER WAS NOT IN MY TO DO LIST BUT SUDDENLY A IDEA POPPED UP IN MY MIND ABOUT WRITING AND SHARING SOME INTERESTING ANECDOTES HAPPENED IN MY LIFE . TO BE TRUE I AM NOT A WRITER TYPE PERSON BUT I HAVE A STRONG LONG TERM MEMORIES ABOUT MY CHILDHOOD DAYS SO THERE ARE HELL LOT OF NOSTALGIC MOMENTS TO SHARE . COME TO THINK OF IT I THOUGHT OF WRITING ABOUT MYSELF SIMPLY LIKE SELF INTRODUCTION BEFORE I START WITH MY STORIES . WELL TO DESCRIBE ME PERFECTLY I AM SOMEONE WHO LIKES TO ME ALONE IN FACT I ADORE LONELINESS BY THE WAY ITS SO COOL TO BE LIKE THAT AND CAN ESCAPE FROM ALL THE TRIVIAL THINGS HAPPENING AROUND ESPECIALLY IN THIS GENERATION .                      

 I LOVE TO BE INVISIBLE IN THIS WORLD SO THAT YOU DON'T HAVE TO FACE ANY COMMITMENTS DEAD LINES ETC ETC INDIRECTLY YOU CAN BE FREE LAZY AND FOLLOW YOUR OWN RULES AND REGULATIONS . PRACTICALLY SPEAKING NO ONE IS GOING TO READ MY BLOG BUT I THOUGHT OF WRITING IT ANYWAY BECAUSE I WANT TO MAKE IT A POINT TO SAVE MY MEMORIES WHICH CROSSES MY MIND AT TIME I WRITE ANY NEW NEWS . MEMORIES FADE THEY SAY , SO ITS ALWAYS GOOD TO CHERISH OLD MEMORIES AND SAVE IT FOR FUTURE .    

                    ITS KIND OF FUNNY BUT TO MENTION I AM WRITING MY FIRST PAGE AND I AM THINKING ABOUT THE FUTURE DAYS LIKE AFTER TEN YEARS IF I GOT TO READ THIS PAGE ONCE AGAIN IT WOULD BE SO REFRESHING TO THINK THAT WOH ! THAT'S AMAZING THAT I CAN WRITE A PAGE THIS LONG SIMPLY WITHOUT ANY PROPER MAIN THEME WHICH REMINDS ME OF MY COLLEGE DAYS , HOW I USED TO FILL ALL THE 41 PAGES OF ANNA UNIVERSITY ANSWER SHEET WITHOUT ANY HESITATION BUT THE PROBLEM IS I HAVE NO IDEA OF WHAT I AM EXACTLY TRYING TO EXPLAIN .                  

       BELIEVE ME PEOPLE I HAVE CLEARED ALL MY SEMESTERS AND MANAGED TO SCORE 70% MARKS THAT IS KIND OF GREAT SCORE TO ME UNLIKE OTHERS BECAUSE I AM JUST AN AVERAGE STUDENT AND AS  I AM LAZY I MOSTLY SKIP STUDYING AND INVOLVE IN MY DAY DREAMING ACTIVITIES . BUT I HAD A STRONG SENSE OF KNOWLEDGE IN DAY TODAY ACTIVITIES AS MY MENTOR SIR ALBERT EINSTEIN SAYS KNOWLEDGE IS PRACTICALLY EVERYWHERE BUT WE FAIL TO NOTICE IT . SO I MADE A POINT THAT I WILL OBSERVE THIS WORLD IN COMPLETELY DIFFERENT MANNER UNLIKE GEEKS DO .                         THE MAIN THEME IN DESCRIBING YOURSELF WILL BE OF COURSE TALKING ABOUT YOUR LIKES AND DISLIKES AS THESE TOPICS WILL MORE LIKELY TO ELABORATE YOUR WRITING AND EXPANDING YOUR STORY .                

LETS STARTS WITH WHAT I DISLIKE FIRST AS IT WILL END SOON BECAUSE I REALLY DON'T HATE MUCH THINGS,WHEN I WAS A CHILD I WAS SO OBSESSIVE AND ALWAYS USED TO THINK OF BECOMING SOMETHING GREAT LIKE BEING FAMOUS AND GET ATTRACTION IN WHAT EVER I DO BUT AS I GREW UP I CAME TO UNDERSTAND HOW FOOLISH I WAS BACK THEN BUT NOW I REALLY FEEL THE ESSENCE OF BEING MYSELF WITHOUT FAKING MY ORIGINALITY , I AM A PERSON WITH LESS WORDS . I HATE PEOPLE WHO ARE OBSESSED WITH POWER, MONEY ATTITUDE AND PRIDE BECAUSE I THINK THAT'S ABSURD NO ONE WILL JUDGE YOU BY THAT BUT UNFORTUNATELY THE CURRENT ERA DOES, ITS LIKE PEOPLE HAVE LOST THEIR SENSE OF INDIVIDUALITY.THEY BECOME GREEDY ,SELFISH AND SELF CENTERED BUT I AM LUCKY THAT WAY BECAUSE I NEVER GIVE PEOPLE A CHANCE TO INTERACT WITH ME IN THAT WAY I COULD REDUCE THE USELESS PRESSURE THROWN AT ME THAT IS WHY I FELT VERY BETTER WHEN I BECAME HIKIKOMORI.           

       I HATE TO LISTEN TO PEOPLE WHO ARE INSANE TALKING ABOUT THEIR OWN STUPID ACHIEVEMENTS LIKE BUILDING A HOUSE ,MAKING MONEY ,GAINING FALSE RESPECT FROM THE SOCIETY ,DEMANDING TO AGREE FOR THEIR OPINIONS ITS LIKE THEY ARE FEEDING US WITH UNNECESSARY STUFFS BY FORCE DAMN NO WORDS TO EXPLAIN THAT FRUSTRATED FEELING ,SO NAIVE AS IF WE FORGOT THE SENSE OF DIRECTION IN THIS WORLD AND BLINDLY FOLLOWING THE FOOTPRINTS OF SOMEONE WHO HAS NO IDEA .              

   I ALWAYS USED TO THINK OF BRING A SOLUTION FOR ALL THE FALSE PERCEPTION OF PEACE PREVAILING IN THIS WORLD BUT INSIDE ITS LIKE SO DARK AND CRUEL EVERYWHERE PEOPLE ARE SUFFERING SO DISGUSTING TO LOOK AT.YOU MAY THINK ITS A NEGATIVE THOUGHT BUT I AM NOT A NEGATIVE PERSON I AM KIND OF IGNORING PERSON WHO USED TO THINK HALF OF OUR LIFE GOES IN SLEEP, QUARTER OF IT GOES IN DOING NONSENSE THINGS AND REST IS WHAT LEFT FOR US TO USE PRODUCTIVELY, WELL TRUE PERCEPTION LIES ON SPENDING HAPPY LIFE WITHOUT INFERRING INTO THIS TRIVIAL MATTERS EXISTING IN THIS WORLD .             

    WELL ENOUGH OF THIS HATE STUFFS LETS MOVE INTO SOME COOL STUFFS WHICH I REALLY MEAN TO ACKNOWLEDGE IN THIS LIFE TIME .THERE ARE SO MANY THINGS I LIKE IN THIS WORLD BUT TO EXPLAIN MY LIKES IT WILL TAKE MORE EFFORT BECAUSE I HAVE TO SORT IT ACCORDING IN ALPHABETICAL ORDER , JUST KIDDING I HAVE NO TIME TO EXPLAIN NOW SO I THINK I WILL MAKE IT IN MY NEXT WRITING UNTIL THEN STAY CALM AND READ MY BLOG .